Thoughts

Halloween – I bought my first batch of Halloween candy today. Why does it have to be so good? I didn’t eat too much, but enough that I felt kind of sick by the end of the day. :P Ah well… Such is the season.

MySpace – I found a bunch of old friends on MySpace yesterday. It’s so strange to take these walks down memory lane. I feel like I’m a million miles from Montana and my friends that I knew there. Not to mention, Maryland…

Maryland – I got orders to Fort Meade, MD today. Of course, I have to turn them down because I’m getting out. I could never live there, Maryland is like my Brigadoon. It existed, to me, as a strange, parallel universe where I collided with my old selves. My first time there was when I was just 18. It was home to some of my most exciting and horribly terrifying moments in my life. Then 3 years ago, I went back and had even more crazy experiences. That base is “Bad Joo Joo”, as my friend Jesse used to say. I will say though that the good memories I have from there stand out to me clearer and brighter than most of the memories I have of my military career. And they have a kick ass soundtrack… Some Pink Floyd, Flogging Molly, Starsailor and Cat Stevens. (Shout out to Jesse, April, Daniel, and Alesha...)

Air Force – We are working 7 days a week until the big “INSPECTION” is over with on the 23rd of October. Also, we have officially been at war longer than we were during Word War II. On that note, my morale is at an all time low.

Forgiveness and Apologies – I have never claimed to be perfect. (Well, maybe once or twice but I was drunk and mostly kidding…) I would like to take a moment to acknowledge some friends of mine that I selfishly wronged in the past. I was an obnoxious teenager and a pretentious, know-it-all young adult. I was needlessly mean to people who were trying to help me and broke promises left and right. I can’t go back to each one of you and try to apologize, the fact is, some of you aren’t speaking to me. But, if you ever read this, I want you to know that I know I was wrong. I was too wrapped up in my own problems to be a very good friend to anyone. So for those of you that actually stuck it out, and still speak to me… Thanks, I’m mostly better now. I hope I can repay your kindness someday.

And in other news – When I do yoga, I feel like a fat uncoordinated lump flailing my limbs about. Is this normal? I’m a pretty good dancer I swear, but ask me to hold any pose, I look like I’m having some sort of severe muscle spasm… What is up with that?

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