August 2004

August 26th, 2004
I had a dream last night about my friend Stacia coming to visit and how she had invited like a hundred people, that I didn't know, Over for dinner and we only had enough food for like thirty people. I woke up in a cold sweat. These are my nightmares now. Not about fire or murder anymore... ( i used to have some doozies, let me tell you.) I dream about not being able to be a good hostess. Geez, I am becoming "Dinner Party Lady". That is the name Sheila uses to describe to people who I am. Oh well.... I do love a good dinner party, what can I say?
So, the new thing at my work is this break area I created over in one corner. We've got a mini fridge, a microwave, and.... *drum roll please* an espresso machine... My days have taken on that frenetic caffeinated pace that dogs most people and up until now eluded me. My production is through the roof. I swear, even my thoughts are moving faster now. And in other news, I have forgotten my wedding ring in the bathroom again today. I was in such a hurry and I didn't realize until I was half-way to work that I had forgotten it. :( I feel like something is terribly wrong, I'm so used to wearing it already. Isn't that funny? I feel like I've had it for ages when in all reality, it's been less than three months. :)
I spent a little bit of time yesterday compiling some of my poetry, and realized how much I had written as of late. If I get up to about thirty or so, I might add a page to this site just to share them with folks. Until then, here is my latest...
"untitled"

flushing past sins downand they float away on a dirty little riverof my indiscretionsnobody saw my mistakemore up close than youwith stubble and a backwards capscraping your teeth against my metallic skinsmearing any black leftacross sweaty cheeksmy love sits on my chestso heavy I can't breatheI never couldthat's how you caught memade me feel smallmade it loud and messyfull and emptycold and darkgraffiti littered throughmy sugar coated smilesgod pulls this deep red velvetthrough miles and milesof brightly colored hopes and dreamsfloating and watching down on me and youshaking his golden headlaughing merrily at all my wrong turnsshaking pale kneesstuttering stilletto heelsmoving in time to the rythm of saintslipstick tastes like wine andthe stain of my devotionshows on your shadowed faceflowing beats that resound insidemy empty stomachand my pointy shoulders glidingfar from your sandpaper touchsnagged silksoft to the touch reminds uswhere that burning path took usand how much it achedand we part slowlysoles shuffling distancespalms trailing down armswaking up on the floorwith the sun shining down brightly.
~e
August 24th, 2004
Sorry for the lack of updates... :)
I've been totally swamped at work since Sgt. Azbell went on leave, and actually a lot has happened lately... Paka is getting so big. He and Cleo are finally starting to get along. They still fight a little bit, but it's mostly because Paka is going through a rambunctious phase where he likes to jump on Cleo's head and she is much to dignified to allow that to go on, so she smacks him in the head and hisses at him. It's pretty funny actually. :)
So, we finally finished Sheila's website. It's my first actual freelance web design project, and I'm very proud of it. Sheila is really picking up steam in her music career, so I've been very involved in preparing for her big musical debut at the Red Monkey on September 18th. If you want to come, you can check out the information on her website.
Tim's surprise birthday party went off without a hitch. It was so much fun. He loved all his presents and I think everyone had a great time. I got to give a shout out to Sam & Rachel for helping me orchestrate the whole thing and to Sheila for helping me decorate.
Tim and I have also been planning our honeymoon. We are taking a big long road trip and we are going to be leaving on September 2nd and driving all over the place, see big things, and having big adventures. My friend Stacia gets into town on Thursday, I'm so excited, I haven't seen her in about two years, so I'll really looking forward to hanging out in LoDo, just like the old days. :)
So, that's what I'm up too, more later...
~e
A few of my latest poems....
"the zoo"
they danced around in furry suitswith extra long toeslooking smartand red and blue and greenwith tusks and teethobnoxious plumesand waving tailsbeady eyesthere's no politicsthere's no ideasjust putting on a showstrutting around like hookerspeople paid for your attentionand then all you gave themwas shit smeared on glassand a yellow grin.
"the hilton sisters"
two pin tucked smiles resting nervously on age spotty handssmiling as big as their face lifts will let themtwo faded eyes not as bright as we left themsun burnt and baked skincrackles while showing too muchof veins and wrinkly tattoosextensions sewn into coarse peppered rootsdyed blonde to prove somethingshopping in the junior sectionmumbling something about donatellaand how she's not fooling anyonea night in parisseemed a lifetime awaybecause it wasand people only talk about their beautyto remind themselves how stale they'd becomeyouth and beauty fade but money and bad taste live on foreveror as long as the botulism will let them
August 5, 2004
(a poem by me)your beauty is roughand aged and crackedslightly beaten and covered with worldly woeswith folded hands you greet the sins of mineand my back and lipsrolling on and over and throughlike i am nothing newso i move onfloating down filthy hallswith melting wallsyour song crashes through meslides under doorstaps on broken windowsfiltering through the thick curtainsand dancing in my darkso maybe you've changedand my coarse hopes are not showing like a dirty slip~e
Hello everyone,
Sorry for the lack of updates, but summer is always like this for me, especially now that I'm doing more freelance work. I also have some news... I got a kitten! He is so adorable. His name is Paka, which is Swahili for "sly one; cat". He takes up a lot of my extra time especially since he needs so much cuddling. Okay, he doesn't really need it, but i do it anyway because he's so freaking cute! Come one, isn't it true?

And in other news, I have finally uploaded all the wedding photos to an online photo album where you can order your own prints and enlargements, if you so desire. (Except for Mom and Shirley, I'm making scrapbooks for both of you with all the pictures in them) If you want to view the pictures and I haven't already sent you an e-mail sharing it out to you, ( I only sent it to a few folks...) then just shoot me an e-mail and I'll add you on....I can't believe the wedding was a month ago...it feels like a long time has passed actually. Tim and I are really looking forward to our honeymoon at the end of the month. I can't wait to show Oregon to him. I mean, most people who are from there probably take it for granted, but when I think of Port Orford I think of it as a truly wonderful place and I miss it a lot. Not my old house, but just all the special little things about it that you'd never know about unless you lived there for a long time... Tim and I's freelance work has picked up a lot and it looks like we are going to be doing business together more frequently, which is great, cause we can always use the extra money. Tim's birthday is in a couple days, I can't believe he's going to be 27! :) We've got a few things planned for that and other than that, things are pretty mellow around here...Talk soon...
~e
p.s. If you haven't seen Napoleon Dynamite then you are an IDIOT! :) Just kidding, if you haven't seen it, then you should...you don't know what your missing! I laughed so hard my side hurt!