JULY 2003
Today was poo. I had a long nights sleep, but somewhere around 5:30 this morning, I woke and went back to sleep. When I did, I started having the scariest dream. When I have scary dreams they usually consist of me trying in vain to protect someone I love from harm and failing miserably. (insert Freudian analysis here) So anyway my dream was about my sisters husband, who I barely know…and his crackhead older brother (who exists only in this dream) Apparently I was try to save my sister from this house where she was trapped with her husband (who in real life is a total sweetie) who was also a psycho crackhead. So him and his fictional older brother had these huge serrated knives and they were chasing her around trying to kill her. So in my dream I have my sister Emily, my brother Jackson and five other babies in this big van…I leave them in the van to go get mary and by the time I rescue her I get back out to the van and they are trying to cut up the babies. So then my Dad is on the roof of this house nearby with a sniper rifle and he takes both the guys out in this bloody gun fight. Then I woke up. Anybody know what the hack that dream was about???????????? Anyway….today’s top five list:
Top Five Things That Pissed Me Off Today:
1. Ben. I haven’t heard from him in almost a year and the one PM he sent to me was a nasty gram for some lame ass reason. WHAT A TOOL!
2. People at work that expect me to be an expert on something that has nothing to do with my job. Ask me about VTC, ask me about posters, ask me about web design, but don’t ask me why I didn’t fill out some form I’ve never heard of and give it to some people who I didn’t know it should go to.
3. My ovaries. They ache, throb and generally just piss me off. Damn ovaries.
4. Jessica. She wouldn’t sign Corey’s birthday card. She’s just a really spiteful person. I know he won’t care, but still…holding grudges is just lame. She is lame. SUPER LAME-O!!!!
5. Sgt Eaton. No particular reason. Just that he annoys me.
2003-07-22 14:59:00
Cannibalism and Chaos:
Top Five Reasons I Joined the Air Force:
I wanted to get the hell out of Port Orford (mission accomplished) I wanted to make my Dad proud (umm....I think I did that)
I wanted college money (sure...but have I gone yet....NOPE!)
I wanted to see the world (well....if you consider montana, colorado, texas and maryland the world, than yeah)
I wanted to uproot the government with my liberal ideals (I'm officially a big fat tool.)
I just read the most disturbing article about Liberia and the “child soldiers” that have been terrorizing the country. I have such a soft spot for humanity. I hate reading about the bitterness, hatred and violence in the world. But I’m like a punishment junkie. I can’t help but finish the article and now I feel all yukky. (if you’d like to feel yukky too, pick up the August 2003 issue of Rolling Stone, it’s on page 40)
I guess the real problem for me is that I want to believe on some level that the American government will find some better use for me. While my fellow airmen, soldiers and the like are out in the desert trying to win this war that no one seems to know anything about, there is an entire country of violent drug addicted children cutting out each others hearts and beating each other to a bloody pulp, and I’m here in Denver…making Senior NCO induction certificates. Oh yeah….I’m definitely helping out.
I feel so helpless. It seems wrong for me to revel in my “job security”, drive a brand new car, when all I’ve done since I’ve been in the Air Force is design newspaper covers that no one look at and posters that no one reads. WHERE IS MY DUTY? WHAT IS MY PURPOSE???? I haven’t done anything to help anyone…and yet I spend my weekend watching tv and laying next to the pool. All the while on the other side of the world there is turmoil and death and sadness. I feel like I’m the biggest hypocrite. I can’t say I’m serving my country if I’ve never had to sacrifice anything….can I? ~e
2003-07-21 11:38:00 What does it all mean?????
I had an awesome weekend. I hung out with the guys on Friday night....it's always fun to chill with Kevin. But right now he's medicated (he just had surgery) so it's even more fun. Anyway, we watched this military thriller movie called Basic. That movie left me so confused, but it did show that after all these years, John Travolta has still got it. Damn that man is hot. ;) And speaking of Hot Johns....can we all agree that Johnny Depp in the New Pirates of the Caribbean movie looks so deliciously dirty....it's unbelievable how hot he is. Anyway, on Sat. I mainly just lied around in my jammies watching movies and eating honey combs. But then that night, the man and I went to Opal for sushi. It was awesome. I really think that Sushi is the food of the gods. It's so rich and tasty.
Anyway, I’m feeling kind of basic today so...
Top Five CD's I'm sad I lost:
Jill Scott - Who is Jill Scott?
Tenacious D - Tenacious D
Coldplay - Parachutes
Frou Frou - Details
The Police - Greatest Hits
2003-07-07 12:07:00
More useless Information.... Ok, I'm posting this only cause my sissy sent it to me and since I had nothing better to do, I filled the whole thing out. I'm encouraging all you who are also bored out of your skulls to fill in your own answers and post them in the comments section. Why? I said it before I'M FLIPPIN' BORED!!!!!!!!! Please give me something to read. Hugs and kisses to you all.... ~e
Name = Spanky Mac Farland
Piercing's = ears
Tattoos = a little flower on the back of my neck
Height = 5’4”
Shoe size = 8
Hair color = Always some variation of BLONDE!
Length = Chin length bob
Siblings = 2 sisters and a brother
LAST...
Movie you rented = Punch Drunk Love
Movie you bought = Gosford Park
Song you listened to = Waking Up
Song that was stuck in your head = Loving You
CD you bought = Jason Mraz - The Remedy
Person you've called = TSgt Freeny
Person that's called you = Beth Wolfe
TV show you've watched = That 70’s Show
Person you were thinking of = My sissy, Mary
DO...
You have a bf or gf = I have a boyfriend
You have a crush on someone = I’m not telling you!
You wish you could live somewhere else = Europe
You think about suicide = Never
You want more piercing's = maybe when I get out of the Air Force
You drink = Merlot/Manhattan/Fat Tire/ Guinness….it depends on my mood
You do drugs = Nope!
You smoke = Nope!
You like cleaning = Yep! I love making everything all tidy!
You write in cursive or print = I usually write in what I call “prursive” it’s a print/cursive combo. :P
You carry a donor card = no….
FOR OR AGAINST...
Long distance relationships = Never seen a successful one myself, but I suppose anythings possible
Using someone = Never. That’s bad karma
Killing people = if they were trying to kill me or someone I love than yeah. Or if they stole my jellybeans, those fuckers would DIE!!!
Teenage smoking = yuk!
Premarital sex = morally, I don’t think it’s wrong….as long as you really care about the person Driving drunk = very very bad!
Gay/lesbian relationship = morally, I don’t think it’s wrong….as long as you really care about the person
Soap operas = BORING!!!
FAVORITE...
Food = SUSHI!!!
Song = Yoshimi battles the evil pink robots
Thing to talk about = um….myself? ;) j/k
Sports = I only like the X-games
Drinks = white cranberry juice, and fat-free chai latte’s
Clothes = jeans and a black tank top
Movies = Empire Records, High Fidelity
HAVE YOU...
Ever cried over a guy/girl = Yeah…I’m a big cry baby
Ever lied to someone = yeah….but I’m pretty sure they didn’t believe me. I’m a crappy liar. Ever been in a fist fight = With my sister when we were kids….and with this chick at my 21st birthday party.
Ever been arrested = Nope, but I had a couple close calls…
NUMBER...
Of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 1
Of people I consider my enemies? 3 (my old roomie, saddam and osama)
Of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? Tons of times…I’m a superstaaaaaah!
Of scars on my body? Tons of little ones
Of things in my past that I regret? High School on into the first three years I was in the AF
FAVORITE...
Disney movie = Finding Nemo (honorable mention: The Lion King, The Jungle Book and Swiss Family Robinson)
Scent = My boyfriend
Word = Jesus Chrysler SuperCar
Eye color = Blue Color = Blue and black
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
Funny = hella funny
Hot = not really, but I got lots personality to make up for it…
Friendly = depends on my mood
Amusing = um…hellooooo? Isn’t amusing the same as funny?
Lovable = tiffany says sometimes…
Caring = ummm…. I try to be. Tiffany says piss off. Bitch.
Sweet = umm, yes.
Dorky = Super Dorky…
Spell your first name backwards: nire. I’m da queen


